Monday, November 4, 2013

Why Hold Out For More (Robert Hunter & Jerry Garcia - "Here Comes Sunshine")



The other morning I am watching my favorite news show, a U.S. newscast based in New York. The morning news leads with gubernatorial elections in Virginia and New Jersey and the political implications for the national Democratic and Republican Parties as well as the Tea Party. My children were awake, bleary eyed and quietly eating breakfast since they are not yet too excited by politics. Then the host of the morning show began speaking about the next news story. “In Toronto…” she began. My kids perked up and started paying attention. The newscaster was talking about the troubling news story of Toronto Mayor Rob Ford smoking crack and even with this news the Mayor’s approval ratings had actually gone up 5 points from the previous week.  Our children’s’ eyes didn’t blink, they didn’t leave the television. Their mouths, ears and eyes were wide open. The story ended, the commercial began and so did the questions. “What’s crack?”  “Is it illegal?” “If the Mayor is doing something illegal why is he still Mayor?” “How can his approval ratings go up if he was smoking crack?” For five minutes as I am preparing to leave for morning minyan, I am answering questions about Crack, drugs, and how can the Mayor smoke crack, break the law, and be Mayor.  We all like to have our leaders, Mayors, Prime Ministers, and Presidents to serve as role models and to have minimal character flaws.
            This week’s Parsha is Parsha Va’Yeitze. We continue reading of the adventures of Yaakov Avinu, Judaism’s third Patriarch.  Yaakov flees from home and eventually arrives at his uncle’s home. Yaakov’ marries both his cousins, Leah and Rachel. He is given their maidservants as a concubine. He has children, twelve sons; he works for his uncle and makes his uncle very wealthy. Finally Yaakov realizes that it is time for him to leave his uncle Lavan and return home. Yaakov devises a plan that will allow him to return home with much of his uncle’s flock as a form of payment for the 21 years of indentured servitude. 
Indeed Yaakov struggles in this week’s Parsha as he struggled in last week’s Parsha.  He struggles in his relationships and faith in God. He struggles with his need to cling to someone or something. He was born clinging to his brother. Now he desperately struggles to find another to cling to: God, Lavan, Rachel, his sons, or his wealth. Yaakov also struggles with himself. He struggles with his “moniker” and what he is supposed to be, an Ish Tam- a simple man (Gen. 25:27), and his desire to be materially well off (Gen.28: 20). Perhaps this struggle is best illustrated at the beginning of the Parsha when Yaakov suggests that God is not yet his God but only the God of his father and grandfather. In that famous dream about the ladder and the angels, God stands next to Yaakov and tells him the Covenant made with his father and grandfather  will now be passed down to him. By re-iterating the covenant with him, Yaakov not only inherits a pre-existing Covenant but also becomes an active participant in the Covenant. God tells Yaakov “Hinei Anochi Imach Ushmarticha b’chol Asher Teilech, Behold I am with you and I will guard you wherever you go…” (28:15). That should have been re-assuring to Yaakov as he makes his way to Padan Aram and to his uncle’s home.
However, Yaakov needs more. Yaakov does not yet have the faith that his father and grandfather have. Yaakov, as a young man, still struggles with who he is, whom he should emulate, and how to live his life.  In an incredible act of chutzpah, Yaakov makes a deal with God. Im Yiheyeh Elohim Imadi Ushmarani Baderech Hazeh Asher Anochi Holech v’Natan Li Lechem L’echol Uveged Lilbosh, vShavti b’Shalom el Beit Avi v’Hayah Hashem Li Le’lohim  -  If God will be with me and will keep me in this way that I go, and will give me bread to eat, and clothes to wear, so that I come back to my father’s house in peace, then shall the Lord be my God. Until now Yaakov only considered God to be the God of Avraham and Yitzchak, his father and grandfather. When will Yaakov consider God his God? If and when God provides him with the material sustenance that his brother Esav clamored for in Parsha Toldot. Yaakov wants food, clothes and material goods. Again we see a very different Yaakov than the one described as an Ish Tam (Simple Man- Gen.25:27) Now that he is on his own, Yaakov is unwilling to accept God as his until he too has some type of personal relationship with God. Both Avraham and Yitzchok had this personal relationship with God and experienced signs and wonders. Yaakov takes the first steps toward a personal relationship with God. He received a Covenant from God. However Yaakov still struggles in his attempt to cling to God.  Certainly some kind of sign or wonder would cement his belief.
Yaakov was hardly a saint. From Yaakov we learn that faith in God is not necessarily easy. While a covenant may satisfy our mind, a sign or a miracle engenders faith in God. Yaakov demonstrates that achieving faith in God is a challenging undertaking, as well as an ongoing process. Frequently this process begins as Yaakov’s began, with an immature demand such as: “if you save me now God,” or “if you do this for me God, then I will do….” Hopefully the process evolves into a more mature relationship where neither party has to prove its faith or its presence to the other. Perhaps this is the difference between one who perpetually struggles and one who has achieved spiritual fulfillment and contentment. I admit it is far easier to explain  and learn from the “flaw” of a lack of faith as opposed to the flaw of arrogance, hubris and smoking crack.

Peace,
Rav Yitz 

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