Monday, July 30, 2012

To Lay Me Down One Last Time - (Robert Hunter & Jerry Garcia - "To Lay Me Down")


          Most parents and parenting experts agree that children's bedtime rituals are very important. For some, it may be reading before the lights go out. For some, it means reviewing the next day’s schedule with the child. Some children will pray before they go to bed. The bedtime ritual in Judaism is to recite the Shemah before one goes to sleep at night. When our children were younger; we would read to them and then we would say the Shemah and the first paragraph beginning with the words “V’Ahavtah et Adoshem Elokechah…”By the time our children were saying their first words, they would say this with us. I remember the feeling my wife and I had when we would begin the ritual and they would say the entire paragraph by themselves. Then I would whistle the song that I gave them when they were born, “Summertime,” “Somewhere or the Rainbow” and “What a Wonderful World”. Then we kiss them goodnight, and we hope that they will sleep through the night and not wake us up.

This morning we read from Parsha V’Etchanan. B’nai Yisroel sits intently and listens to Moshe continues his first discourse on the Law. Moshe re-iterates the covenant, the punishment of exile and the constant possibility of return. Moshe re-iterates the experience of revelation at Sinai as well as a re-statement of the Aseret Dibrot, the Ten Commandments. Moshe teaches this new generation that they heard the revelation, they witnessed the fire. And the fact that they sit on the Eastern Bank of the Jordan River is a testament to that fact. Moshe reminds this new generation that this Torah is perfect, one can interpret but we cannot add or subtract words. Instead we must struggle and make sense of every aspect of Torah. Moshe then introduces the lone piece of dogma in the entire Torah: Shemah Yisroel Adoshem Elokeinu Adoshem Echad Hear O Israel the Lord is God the Lord is One. The Parsha concludes with Moshe strongly reminding B’nai Yisroel that as part of the Covenant it must reclaim the land. Once in the land, B’nai Yisroel is obligated to separate themselves from the other indigenous tribes and uphold the obligations of the covenant that God made with their ancestors.

The Talmud in Tractate Brachot 61b offers the following Aggadah about the final  moments of Rabbi Akiva’s life in order to explain the Pasuk V’Ahavtah et Adoshem Elokechah, B’chol Levavchah U’vechol Nafshechah U’ve’Chol M’odechahYou shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and all your soul and with all your resources (Deut. 6:5). In doing so, ChaZaL –Our Sages of blessed memory, intimated as to why we say the Shemah before we go to sleep. ”When Rabbi Akiva was brought for his execution, it was time to recite the Shemah. As the executioners were combing his flesh with iron combs, he lovingly accepted the yoke of God’s kingship. As he prepared himself to recite the Shemah, his disciples asked: Our teacher, even to such a degree as this you prepare yourself to say the Shemah? Akiva replied: All my days I have been troubled by this verse “With All your soul” (Deut. 6:5), which I interpreted as meaning “Even if he takes your soul.” But I thought to myself: When shall I have an occasion to fulfill this precept? Now that I have the occasion, shall I not fulfill it? So he recited the Shemah and he prolonged the concluding word of the Shemah [the word “Echad”] until he died as he finished saying the word. A divine voice went forth and proclaimed: Happy are you Akiva that your soul has departed with the word “Echad!” With all the possible words and concepts that the Torah teaches, why did Rabbi Akiva view these few Psukim (verses) as the essence of Jewish belief? What are in these particular words that offered Akiva a sense of peace as he made these words his final words? I don’t pretend to go into the psyche of a dying man who is being tortured for teaching torah and being a leader of the Jewish people.

When we read these two Psukim Shemah Yisroel Adoshem Elokeinu Adoshem Echad Hear O Israel the Lord is God the Lord is One: V’Ahavtah et Adoshem Elokechah, B’chol Levavchah U’vechol Nafshechah U’ve’Chol M’odechahYou shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and all your soul and with all your resources, we should be in awe of the raw simplicity of the first statement, and we should feel empowered by words of the second statement. Even as Akiva helplessly lay splayed out on an altar with metal combs ripping his flesh, Akiva possessed enough strength to declare Hear O Israel. Akiva had enough faith to declare The Lord is God. No matter what, no matter the joy or the sadness, God is the ultimate source of energy, the ultimate source of all things. Rabbi Akiva understood that “with all your soul” means in life and in death. R’Akiva understood that in life and even as he lay dying, he was still able to engage in a relationship with God. No matter where we are in life, no matter what is happening in our life, we are all empowered to engage God. We are all capable of having Torah and doing Torah.

Every night our children go to sleep. Every night we go to sleep. Often time, bedtime for children can be fraught with anxiety. Monsters are under the bed, mommy and daddy are not there in the room. For the elderly, night time is also fraught with anxiety, which is why it is quite common for older people to wake up so early in the morning. I remember asking my grandfather why he would wake up so early and he would say that he has plenty of time to sleep when he is dead (God forbid). Yet his response was quite profound. Sleep, in a sense is the closest thing to death, which we all experience. Our heart rate slows, our metabolism slows and we are unconscious. So the final words on our mouths, the final thoughts in our minds should be our relationship with God. That statement is the final spoken thought before I go to bed. Although I always quietly add my own personal addendum that my children should stay in bed and not wake us up in the middle of the night.

Peace,
Rav Yitz

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